Once you start a journey it is always suitable to end it. I have never dug deep into the principles and think that this time period will come to an end.
Not that I was desperate but because I knew the time will leave me sadness and emptiness. What I mean is that I loved what I did and it opened distance and space.
Thus the beginning process of trying to appropriately say goodbye to those around you. I’ll be honest, I do not really do a great job of it. I don’t have the guts to want to say goodbye. I didn’t want to deal with all those emotions in the first place, because there are a lot of them.
I try not to think about it. After a while, it gets exhausting to say goodbye over and over again. I preferred thinking of each meeting with a friend as a simple “see ya later.”
The moment we share with everyone and also the city we grew up knowing will endure in our memories.
I loved feeling at home and thinking that it is the only existing place on earth. Cedar Rapids Iowa has been like a dream. Perhaps a family member, a helper, and a best friend.
I am so overwhelmed with the stress of moving away. Sometimes you don’t spend enough time on the things maybe you should have spent time on. All the time I spent exploring feels nothing like I did not do good enough to a minimum amount of presenting my city with pride
It takes a lot of work to tie up loose ends, especially moving far away from where it will be challenging to connect. I feel bad that there are few of my classmates, and a few of my friends I didn’t get proper goodbyes with.
At the moment I am also in self-preservation mode, trying to just keep my head above water, and I don’t have time to make time for everybody and everything.
It’s part of the nasty business of leaving. Making some tough decisions that hurt others. But, saying a proper goodbye is important.